Huge Life/Content Updates

30 January, 2019


Hi all. Sorry for the late one if you're in the UK, I really wanted to get this out there before I sleep.

As you may know (because I've discussed this on stream, Twitter etc) I have been really struggling with my schedule lately. Over the last few years my active projects have only grew and it's made me feel more and more overwhelmed to the point where around the Christmas period, I just honestly broke. I lost all my motivation, I stopped creating everything and coming back from that has been one of the hardest experiences of my content creation career over the last few years.

February marks 5 years since I started my Minecraft Youtube channel, the one that began this entire crazy life I live in now. It seems fitting that I am making new changes right as my 5 year anniversary approaches.

In 2018 the things I was doing slowly began to become unmanageable. I was producing too much with too little time to make all of it on my own. I'm not a big creator, so most of what I was producing and most of the stress saw no real gain and wasn't really at all beneficial. However, at the same time, the growth across my channels in 2018 was significantly higher across all of my channels than it ever has been. I want to build on that further, but in a way I can manage but mentally and physically.

Here are the changes I'm making, I hope you understand them and don't feel disappointed by any of them.

NO more daily videos (kind of). As you know, at the start of 2018 I stopped uploading daily to my Minecraft channel after about three years of never missing a day (or uploading twice to make up for missed days). This was a big change for me that did scare me because I'd been so used to creating that much content. I actually saw an INCREASE in my monthly views uploading every other day through January and putting more effort into the content than uploading every day in previous months. Therefore, I will be continuing this onwards through 2019.

The reason I say "kind of" not daily, is because I also have my Roblox channel. Rather than uploading every day to both, I am going to alternate the days. It will look something like this:
Mon: Minecraft Vid
Tue: Roblox Vid
Wed: Minecraft Vid
Thu: Roblox Vid
Fri: Minecraft Vid
and so on...
This will literally HALF my workload while still providing you with a video from me every single day. I hope that makes sense.

Events like Flux UHC, Welly UHC and my Minecraft Tournaments will be continuing this year but they won't be as often. There will likely be two to three seasons of each in 2019 as that is much more manageable for me than the amount I was making before. When these events are being uploaded to my channel, due to their "every-other-day" release nature, other content won't go out on the same channel at the same time. I'm not going to pressure myself to create more during these events rather than just enjoy them.

I will still be posting my Weekly Vlogs to my vlog channel (as that is a place for me to just share things creatively without feeling any pressure to edit well, make the videos topical or relevant or push out things that are 'trendy'. I like it that way. I have no desire to change the 'real' feel of that channel.

There will also be random vlogs here and there about LGBT topics, specifically as my own personal transition progresses this year. I am not going to pressure myself to make sure I post lots of content to this channel.

BeaBabbles. My podcast. I've felt all kinda of crazy mixed feelings for it recently. It's really hard to get the guests together for it, but I do want it to still continue but without pressuring myself to upload it regularly. This is just going to become an "as and when" I have time to create it kind of thing. I have too much going on to pressure myself into creating this often. It's not going away, but won't be super regular either. I want to aim to have an episode out per month, but again, I won't pressure myself. I hope that makes sense.

My blog will be similar. I'm only going to post on it when I can. I'm not pressuring myself to create in so many places anymore because I can't cope with the workload. Sorry.

Twitch in 2019 is going to be my baby. It's agoing to be my primary channel and primary focus from here on out. Regular streams, fun events and focusing on growing my Twitch channel is my priority for 2019. If you don't come to my streams, you should! We have a ton of fun and my Twitch community means the world to me. We have already changed our schedule for 2019 so I won't bore you by reciting that.

The entire point of all of this is to make my workload more manageable. Some days at the end of 2019 I was getting up at 6am, doing a 7 hour work shift, coming home, recording and editing straight away, squeezing in time to study my degree, then streaming, then finishing editing/uploading, falling asleep around 1-3am and then getting back up at 6am, and repeat. It's extremely unhealthy and I'm not going to let myself go back to that. I was severely stressed and I truly don't earn enough money from my content to justify literally destroying my health over it.

You have to also remember I am just one person. No editors, no assistants, nothing. I can't afford any of those things so I am doing this totally alone. It can truly be super overwhelming.

All of this being said, I have some insanely exciting up-coming projects that I am so excited to share with you. I'm sure you've all heard the looming mention of a Flux SMP... but we're keeping ALL of that under wraps for now. All I'll tell you is, this project is taking an entire team of people to bring to life. It's gonna be freaking awesome (if I do say so myself).

I love you all! Here's to a (hopefully) productive 2019 where I don't stress myself to the edge of a breakdown like last year. And while I'm here, if you're a creator too, please take care of yourself. Burnout is real. It sucks. Your health must come first. <3

My 2019 Goals and Plans

25 December, 2018


So, 2019 is upon us.

Before you read this post, if you haven't yet ready my 2018 Round-Up, do so by clicking here!

Each year, when Christmas is on the way, I start to feel wobbly. I start to wonder and worry about the year that's about to come and fixing the mistakes I made this year and improving on what I started. I get all kinds of crazy and panicked.

As I normally do when I start to feel that way, I sat down with my laptop and began thinking of plans for next year, looking over analytics this year and figuring out what I need to do. I have made decisions, guys! I'm an adult! See! I wanted to share those decisions with you so you can know what to expect from me in my FIFTH year of creating content online. Fifth.

So, here goes!

Vlogs & Blogs

Next year I would like to continue to develop my 'Bea Florie' brand. I am so proud of the separate, 'In Real Life' content I have created and I would like to continue that as a priority next year. I'd like to do more trans vlogs especially, but also more lifestyle, beauty and hopefully travel too!

This year we of course started a weekly vlog throughout the middle of the year. I have looked back over them and decided that despite their faults, especially with my struggle to film during days when I feel down, that I really enjoyed them. Therefore I am really thrilled to say that weekly vlogs will be continuing next year! This time, they will have a TON more content. I want to show off more of my life, try to introduce you more to my family and family life, get over my fear of vlogging in public and let you in a little more in a way that I and my loved ones find comfortable. I am also going to stop worrying about how much or how little I film, stop apologising and just enjoy it and LIVE it. Yay!

Minecraft Gaming Channel

This is of course the one that started them all. Almost five years ago, I sat down and created this channel. It is one of my most successful and, honestly, is my baby. In 2019 I obviously have full intention of continuing to make my Minecraft content. It is, however, going to look a little bit different.

I have decided there is no use in trying to push content I WANT people to like that people just DON'T like when I know I also enjoy creating the content you actually want to see. Therefore, especially for my mental health, I will no longer be uploading every day. Instead, I am going to upload every other day (with the exception of any special events) and the content will be more focused on what you love to see and what I enjoy to create. You may have noticed I've been pushing more silly collabs, such as "Trapping Lana in an Ice Maze", or "Fighting a Tornado with Alexa" (those aren't the actual titles, but close enough). I want to post more of this stuff because you all seemed to love it and I REALLY enjoyed creating it.

I also want to push more UHC because I love filming them, I find them a breeze to edit and you guys just seem to love watching it. ALSO, more of my Minecraft Tournaments since the first season was a HIT!

I hope you share my excitement for the future of this channel!

Roblox Gaming Channel

I'm sure it's no secret to any of you that Roblox has done fantastically well among the kid audiences this year. I am, of course, first and foremost before all of my vloggy, bloggy, streamy content, a children's video creator. My biggest passion lies there and always has. I truly believe the future for me is bright in the Roblox community.
Over the last 6 months since creating my Roblox channel, I have seen extremely positive growth and an entirely new, fresh and separate community has been created. I am really passionate about my Roblox channel in 2019, and therefore the current plan is to take the time I will save from posting every other day on my Minecraft channel rather than daily, and also post every other day on my Roblox channel. If it does well, I may consider daily but for now, every other day is the plan!

Alongside my vlogs/blogs, my Roblox channel is going to be a huge priority for me next year and I really, really want to give it my all. Everyone knows that none of my channels have ever been "big", and that's not my goal. My goal is not to be big. But I do want to feel as though I am successful, because nobody wants to feel as though they've failed.

Next year, my Roblox channel will have a big push. I understand if you don't want to come along with me over there and would rather stick to the channels you're used to, but I am so excited nonetheless and so thankful for those who give it a chance!

I have been writing a roleplay, planning so many videos and throwing my best efforts into this channel for 2019. I am SO excited.

Twitch Gaming Streams

Next year I will of course be continuing my Twitch streams! Overall they have been the most successful thing for me in 2018 and I have every intention to nurture that and continue that growth next year! There will be a few changes, but not many. They are as follows!

Our streaming schedule is changing to Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays from 7pm GMT (UK time) and Sundays from 2pm GMT (which is the same as before).

The weekday streams have been spread out with a day gap in-between to allow me time to get other work done, and to relax and cool off between streams. The weekday streams have also been brought back an hour to allow me to finish at 10pm rather than 11pm and be able to sleep at more reasonable times. This will be a trial. If it doesn't work out, we can go back but I would obviously appreciated if all of you came along to share your love!

Mondays will be our new stream day with Rob which is likely to be mainly our custom Community Server and PvP stuff, Wednesdays will be our Viewer UHCs (BeaHC WILL be back, but the guest(s) are unconfirmed and will be announced when things are finalised). Friday is currently not fully set in stone but will likely be things like Harmony Hollow, or Jackbox Games (as I know you love them!). Sundays are more than likely going to be UHC/PvP days but it's not set in stone yet!

I look forward to next year's streams with you guys! I love getting to communicate with you in real-time!

Social Media

I am going to continue to push my social media in 2019. My Twitter is always random and crazy and the best place to be to know exactly what I'm up to! But I will be pushing my Instagram even further with regular stories, exciting posts and hopefully also a consistent colour theme through the whole thing. I may need to pull in some help for it to help me get it started, lol! I also plan to make some more IGTV videos if people are interested (let me know in the comments, I will reply to them!) and potentially push my Facebook Page? I've never been interested in Facebook, but I have always had an official page for my content. Facebook is putting a lot of work in with content creators right now, so it may be worth it! Drop a like on it by clicking here and I'll love you forever!

That's basically it for content I think! I am so bloody excited for next year and pushing so much more love and effort into my work. I hope you will continue to be there with me throughout the next year.

I love you all dearly and look forward to seeing your names pop up in 2019! Please do drop a comment below, I will reply to all of them!

Happy New Year, thank you for everything.

All my love, Bea x

2018 Round-Up! (An Odd Year)

Hello everyone!

I hope you are doing well and had a fantastic Christmas (or Holiday season if you don't celebrate Christmas). New Year is fast approaching and things are finally winding down after potentially one of the most stressful, full-on years I have ever had!

I have been thinking a lot over the last few weeks about writing a blog post to end off the year, and what that blog post would be about. I finally settled on the idea of a little round-up of the year and the achievements I've made, plus a little chat at the end about my goals for 2019. Without further delay, let's go for it!

January

At the start of 2018, my head was full of goals. So many goals that I couldn't possibly achieve all of them. I had way too many ideas and I felt very overly ambitious. Nonetheless, off I went attempting to reach for my dreams!

I started my new job at my current workplace after training for a year and a half. I only had 6 months left of my qualification at the time so I was thrilled to have got a job before even completing it. I started posting more regularly on my Instagram with the hopes of improving my social media presence throughout 2018. I focused more on reviving my dead Vlog Channel on YouTube to begin sharing more of my life and discussing more things that I felt passionate about. I totally changed my Twitch livestream schedule, which proved to be very successful and almost doubled my follower numbers and tripled my viewership throughout the year! I also began trying to be more out-going, starting with saying "yes" to more outings with my family, friends and colleagues. It was also my 19th Birthday on the 23rd and we went out for a lovely family meal.


February

In February, I always start to feel a slump. I set big goals for myself and Feb is usually the time I start to already give up on them.

Aspirations, Goals and Pressure

17 November, 2018

I think about my future very often. I am one of those people who rarely thinks 'in the now' but rather always 'what's going to happen'. I am always planning way in advance, sometimes unnecessarily. I always have really big ambitions and often they are irrational but that won't stop me from trying my absolute hardest to make them a reality. This however, isn't always a positive. Because I always have big, ambitious goals I tend to beat myself up quite heavily if I don't achieve them which obviously is not very healthy. Today I really wanted to talk about aspirations and why they can sometimes be a negative as well as a positive.

I am very aspirational, ambitious, a 'dream-bigger' if you will.  Every year I set myself 'Year Goals', every month I set myself 'Month Goals', and you guessed it, every week and every day I do it too. Some of them are perfectly reasonable, like 'Write a New Blog Post Today' or 'Record This Vlog Today'. Some, are much bigger and sometimes even out of my control, such as "Reach X Amount of Subscribers on YouTube". Often when I complete one of my goals I feel really good about myself, I feel empowered. But when I don't manage one or I mess up I feel absolutely rubbish. I tend to feel sad that I didn't complete it and then I'm hard on myself for not making sure I had the time to do it, even if having that time is completely impossible. I know in my head that it's irrational to be angry with myself that I haven't recorded a haul vlog I've been planning for over a week yet. I haven't had time due to work, YouTube and so on, yet I will still think "I could have still done it, and it's your own fault you didn't" even if in reality I really couldn't have fit it in. I know that it's irrational to be angry with myself and yet I find it completely impossible not to be.

The British Tag

11 November, 2018

Last night I was sat, uploading a vlog, when I realised I really need to start brainstorming some more blog post ideas. Then, I had a real lightbulb moment! TAGS!

Everyone loves tags. 'Boyfriend Tag', 'Best-friend Tag', 'Get To Know Me Tag'. You name it. I have done a few tags on YouTube in vlog form but I'm not sure I've ever done one as a blog.

I went around looking for different tags I thought I might be interested in, then I noticed a very old one by Samantha Marie called 'The British Tag'. Essentially, it's a list of stereotypical British questions (that are actually quite accurate). So I figured, why not?

Here we go, The British Tag.

1). How many cups of tea do you drink in a day and with how many sugars?

I am pretty stereotypically British. I do really enjoy tea. I drink tea at work, I drink tea before I sleep (most nights) and I even drink tea in the mornings. I don't like coffee, always tea.

I'd say that I easily drink three to four cups of tea per day, but occasionally there's definitely more. I don't drink flavoured teas or fruit teas. Just good old Yorkshire Tea or PG Tips.

2). What is your favourite part of a roast dinner?

Sometimes I'm not okay, and that's okay.

03 November, 2018


Do you ever just wake up one morning and feel completely lost? But not the usual kind of lost, not the kind where there's an explanation for it, such as losing something, or someone, or experiencing something negative. I mean the kind where you wake up feeling lost, sad, empty, but there's absolutely no reason you can think of for it, nor any explanation or signs of what led to it.

Sometimes when I wake up this way, it doesn't just last a morning. Sometimes, it doesn't just last a day. Occasionally, this feeling can last me weeks. Eventually, you kind of get used to that empty feeling and you start to learn how to hide it, how to push it down and pretend or even hope it isn't really there. It's honestly a very sucky experience.

For the last two weeks, this is how I've felt. The only energy I have is to take crappy pictures with Snapchat filters and never use them for anything. It's common for me to feel it in very early summer. I really don't manage well in heat and I hate trying to sleep when it's light outside, so often I get really moody for a few weeks whilst I get over the fact that I just have to deal with it for a while. This time, it's the start of Autumn. My favourite season, if you were unaware. So it definitely isn't a seasonal thing.

My Relationship Experience

01 November, 2018

Hello, Hola, Bonjour, *insert hello in other assorted languages here*.

You may be wondering 'Bea, what has prompted you to discuss this topic?'. Good question. I think relationships can be very complicated. Sometimes they're amazing and wonderful, but sometimes they're scary and uncomfortable. I have only had a couple of experiences in my still very short life, but I feel it's important to talk about things because you never know who is looking for someone to relate to. When I was 18, I was in a really horrible relationship. I was really sad and I felt really trapped. I remember google searching 'am I too young to feel trapped/isolated in a relationship? - I even wondered if I was overthinking it and perhaps I was too young to feel hurt or controlled. I would think that people would just laugh at me if I told them I was in an unhappy relationship I felt I couldn't escape and that they'd just say 'You're 18! You don't know what you're talking about!'. You're never too young, or too old to experience physical or mental abuse, and so here I am, talking about something that happened to me a while ago that has taken me a long time to feel comfortable discussing.

Before you read on, there is some mention of somewhat sensitive subjects, so please be mindful and discretion advised.

My track record with relationships is not something to get excited about. I mean, let's start with the fact that I'm only (just about) 20 years old. Give a girl some time to live her life before telling her she needs someone else to live it with! Jeez. Throughout the short time that I have been alive, however, I have had one or two (potentially three or four...) actual relationships. Two of these relationships where 'serious' (or as serious as they can be aged 17 - 19). One of the serious ones was okay at the start and during, but horrible at the end. The other was just horrible all around. I've had some pretty negative experiences when it comes to emotional (and sometimes physical) unpleasantness, most of which I feel too uncomfortable to discuss, but I think it's important that people realise that emotional/physical abuse in relationships (be it friendships, dating, or other kinds of relationship too) is much more common than it may seem.