Autumn

Good day, wherever you may be!

Today is a rather odd day.

I've spent the last few weeks working non-stop. I've had overtime at work left, right and centre. I've had videos and streams all over the shop. Then I have my degree and everything else in between. Sometimes you don't realise how much you actually do until you stop for a moment to think about it.

Today is odd because it is my first day off work in a while, where I also don't need to record, or edit, or stream, or study. A day just for me to spend time thinking, relaxing and enjoying life. A day I spend months saying I want and need, and yet, when it comes along I have no idea what to do with myself.

It's finally Autumn. For those who don't know (and I'd be surprised if you don't) Autumn is my favourite time of year. I rather dislike being hot and bothered, so Summer and I don't see eye to eye. Spring is too bright and humid, and Winter is too cold and wet. Autumn is a nice, cool season, with bursting orange trees and yellow colours everywhere to be seen. This year we've had an exceptionally long Summer, and every time it seemed like it was cooling down for Autumn, it got hot again. I am, however, happy to report that my desk fan has officially gone away in the loft, and Autumn is officially upon us.

So far this year has been a difficult one. I can't say 2018 has been a particularly fun year for many reasons. Some really great things have happened, of course. But for the most part, I am really happy it's coming to an end. These last few months have been quite stressful and I'm really looking forward to Christmas just to have some time away from everything. I need a real break, a week or so, where I've pre-planned everything I need to and I can just relax at home with my family without worrying about work, videos, etc. I am so looking forward to that. On the bright side, Catherine is visiting again in November for a week, so that will be like, half a break? I will still have to go to work and stream as usual, but I will get to spend most of my time with her which will be lovely, and I can't wait.

Now that my computer is fixed and I know where I stand in terms of schedule and things I need to do this year, things can now hopefully start looking up. There's been a lot of uncertainty this year which has created a lot of stress and I'm looking forward to not having to worry about what is or isn't going to happen for a while. I can't wait for Christmas, and family time over New Year. Exciting things are happening and I can't wait!

I'm trying to take all of my stresses and turn them into something positive. I'd like to start writing about how I feel in the hope that it will ease some of the uncertainty and stress that I feel, so hopefully soon this blog will be a lot more active. I love communicating with you all, and sometimes it's much easier to through my writing than through talking. At least this way I feel fully confident to express how I'm really feeling.

I hope you all have a wonderful Autumn season, and I look forward to speaking to you all soon!

Let me know in the comments, which season is your favourite?

Thanks for reading my babbling again.

Talk soon,

Bea x